Let the adventure begin

Year 5. 13.04.17

Day 180 Wednesday.

I moved to live in Split, Croatia 2012. During the Autumn of 2015 a friend asked me if I had thought about creating a more modern website. In the November the person who had created my first web site also said the same thing to me. I took it as a sign and decided to stick with someone I knew, somewhere loyalty was playing its part and I agreed a price even though my gut feeling said something else . He asked for a deposit and told me that I should have “everything ” ready by the January.

This put me under pressure but I tried to move things forward. The months dragged on in 2016 and I was disappointed with what was offered. I kept trying to get him to change the things I wanted, some things disturbed me greatly, I wanted other things removed and it wasn’t easy to bring the project to a conclusion. He had also asked for the rest of the money. I didn’t feel right about that but I wasn’t able to call the shots and against my gut feelings I paid in full.

I wasn’t pleased with myself and as the website wasn’t sorted out I became more and more frustrated and began to grow angry. Here was a karmic connection to do with money. 2016 was the year of completion? I obviously had things that needed finishing. In June I had to go to England and I was determined to have everything sorted. I let him persuade me that what he had done was great and I needed to trust him. I went with it but insisted on some changes and everything was promised.

The summer came and went and there are still the same issues. Gradually as I allowed myself to touch my anger and recognised the growing frustration, I realised why I was becoming so disturbed  by it and why I couldn’t manage to get it completed. I realised that I was being sucked into the fear of not having a website and getting left behind! The energy of this new website and his intentions of it being a means of promoting a business, wasn’t mine. It was attached to the realms of chaos and control.

I realised that I had moved into a different and lighter dimension, a dimension that wasn’t attached to money, a dimension where the heart’s desire would blossom and God had no intention of me taking anything of that vibration with me into this new and Holy place for creation. The truth is I wouldn’t even be able to make the transition while I was still attached to anything. Finally the penny dropped.

Once I realised that I was paddling upstream I made the decision to quit. I was very angry and gave instructions to get it off the internet altogether. I didn’t want to be associated with it, I felt that my reputation, my energy was at stake.  I had already lost the old website because of the process and at first was sad about that but later I realised that I wouldn’t have had the courage to walk completely away from having a website or losing my http://www.solarangelica.co.uk name and email address all in one go. We get sucked into so many things and we become attached and we can’t let go.

Decision made, Christmas came and went trusting that he would do what I told him. I went to Cuba in February 2017 and when I came back I decided to check. It’s unbelievable that it is still there with the same problems. 2017, time for new beginnings and if those choices are the right ones because of the energy in the vibration, things happen quickly.  Within a week, one conversation in Split with someone in the know led to another with Clare. A decision was made, the dominoes fell one after the other  and I have a website which holds the vibration of my truth. When the decision is the right one, everything  is easy. Instant manifestation. I shall trust more in future. Let the adventure begin.