Carolyn Maria Brooks has published her first book in 2005 after the death of her mother. It was an extraordinary moment as she was shown what awaits us after we leave this world within the experience of her mother dying.
I am told that this is a book that is easy to read but very difficult to put down and like having a cup of coffee and a chat with a good & loving friend. Love is a big aspect in this book. You can feel it, really experience it. The energy of the book moves the reader; it’s full of surprises, something of interest on every page. It makes you laugh and might make you cry, leading to a form of release and much greater emotional understanding. The sense of loss or guilt often felt with bereavement diminishes. But the book is much more than that, showing how everyday events in life are intrinsically part of the ascension process. It may clarify one’s own journey and add support, or just open one’s eyes to the bigger picture. This understanding leads to a sense of calm and peace with a new level of hope. To survive the challenges modern life brings it really helps when we are aware of and open to all that we are. We are much more than we think.
30 years of profound spiritual experiences revealing the steps needed to be taken by humanity and to change the collective consciousness from one of darkness into light is not an easy undertaking. We have been moving from the state of fear and returning to the understanding of unconditional love. Humanity had to take steps into the unknown, so that the unknown could become known. This took courage for the early light-workers, as we became known. We had to be shown this journey in stages and many aspects of our being were adjusting at the same time according now to the will of God. As the world became more familiar with meditation the vision for our future started to come through. The thought is the deed, but now we began to experience God’s thoughts and with it the raising of our consciousness and changing of our vibration to eventually match with the Angelic realms. I was just 42 years old when this story began and I knew nothing! I would discover that my soul carried a mission which was to take humanity’s consciousness into the realms of angels. Slowly we grew more secure experiencing these loving vibrations and moments of pure peace and bliss. ‘The peace that passes understanding.’ Here in 2021 many people are understanding this concept more and making the journey with the more willing heart. I am now being guided to take humanity’s consciousness and unite with holy levels of understanding. And the book I am trying to write right now will hopefully reveal a much clearer picture of the mission that is Mary Magdalene and bring clarity and understanding to the journey that we are collectively taking now.
It feels important now that my book ‘Hello Mum, are you in heaven yet?’ should be brought to humanity’s attention again.
You might be interested in hearing some of the early stories I’m used to sharing whenever guidance towards vibration of truth is needed. Now you can enjoy some of them in a form of an
e-book on my Etsy shop in 2 languages (English and Croatian) under this address:
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BEING BEING BEING
The collective journey towards ascending is leading us into the state of BEING. What does it actually mean? How does it feel? Why is it important? As a Holy Shaman I was given this lesson and wanted to share it with you today.
“One morning in 2004 I woke up having had a very revealing experience and I want to try to put into words that experience because it was a clear indication of what the angelic realms were trying to teach us. It was the philosophy (written above) made clear. We hear the word “Being” all the time but as yet not many of us truly understand what we are aiming for. “Being” is an experience it has to be felt. It cannot be underestimated the value of this next level of disciplined consciousness.
The greatest gift that you can give to yourself and mankind now is to stabilise your “beingness” at whatever level of enlightenment you have mastered. To truly move into that beingness. NOW is the time to let go and let God. Go with the flow and learn to BE. Accepting who you are, warts and all. Letting go now of the constant mind chatter, the constant self-analysis, often constant dissecting of your emotional parts. Do not pick at the scab anymore. No more do you need to delve deeper and deeper. You have done enough, light workers, LET BE. All you need to do now is learn to “BE”.
Being is our deliverance now and learning how to stabilise our thoughts and ultimately our deeds in our everyday, all day existence. We need to learn to live This Life, accepting our past and our future. Not waiting until we reach some imaginary spiritual place that is going to be even better that sliced bread! We only have this life to experience at this moment in time and so we must make every moment count. This life is where we can see, touch, taste, hear, smell and intuit and with it all create. This life is what counts. So get into this life, this moment, acceptance, let go of the search and the desire to be doing something. Feel the new energy which has arrived or rather we have managed to elevate ourselves to. We have been learning Disciplined Consciousness.
Now is the time to apply and embody the consciousness of Being.
As a Shaman I was given this lesson through a Gorilla. I was shown myself, as the Gorilla, high up in the mountains in the heart of the jungle.
I said to myself “I AM Gorilla.”
I could smell myself and the environment. I could taste the air, what I was eating. I could feel the tenderness and freshness of the leaves of the trees. I could hear the sounds of the jungle, birds calling, insects moving. I could see everything with heightened understanding. I was there. I was that gorilla. I was just lounging in the tree tops, chewing on something and looking out of its beautiful eyes with ancient understanding and wisdom. I felt its amazing strength, knew its knowledge and wisdom. I was the power behind the animal and there was an incredible and amazing sense of calm, peace, gentleness. I was totally undisturbed. It was as if my own heart had removed itself and I was his heart beat.
What I was was “BEING.” I just was the heartbeat of God.
Nothing interfered with my peace-such was the place in the gorilla’s mind. My own mind had skipped off somewhere and therefore couldn’t intrude.
It struck the Maria in me that this was the peace that passeth all understanding.
There was nothing I had to do, nowhere I had to go, and it was as if I just was here in this moment.
Then I was shown the contrast. I had the ability to act if the need arose. When I first wrote this down I wrote ‘react’ but the re was crossed out. Let me try to clarify. I was shown that when need be, I would and could move as easily and quickly as someone playing the piano into a different consciousness. I could be a ferocious killer without any detriment to my being for I only had the ability to act. I saw myself becoming alert, sensing something that had the power to threaten my environment, my situation, my creativity. I moved as the gorilla from the tree tops, felt myself swinging from branch to branch confident in my abilities and strength. As I made my decent I was aware of the alertness in all of my senses. The earth was suddenly below me and as the Gorilla I moved fearlessly towards the thing that had disturbed it. Then I saw another Gorilla. Without hesitation I felt myself within the gorilla propelled forcefully, in total focus for the matter at hand. My brain seemed to come into play; I was strategically alert in order to act in self defence. I took part and experienced this ferocious act and then the other gorilla was dead. I could taste the blood, feel the power, heard my thumping heart beat. Immediately it was over I stopped thinking. Silence fell within me again and I felt nothingness yet it was everything. My mind which was the gorilla’s mind was again without thought. I was being. What struck me was that the gorilla which I was had no sense of guilt or remorse, no sense of fear tied up to that experience. He had not reacted but acted. He did what was necessary to survive through instinct and not through conditioning or programming. This is what we have to come to understand. Act and not react. Act from instinct guided by our divine self which is truth which will be for our highest good and safety. Our survival depends on a fearless existence. We will have to learn how to act powerfully with appropriate behaviour yet with tenderness. That truth only comes from the heart.
We have to go within or we go without!
A young woman from London called me yesterday (13th January 2004-) she was shall we say in a difficult place, confused, her thinking all over the place. I gave her the above information and more. The more was about Jesus and using him as an easy alternative to solving her problems. I’ll try to explain. I ‘know’ he was a holy man and through his understanding and presence gave us the incredible opportunity to use the Holy Spirit Energy. I have come to understand this as a two way process.
I work with the Holy Spirit Energy and it is there for all to tap into. Remember we are looking for ways now to achieve and ground being who we really are. “Grounding was not the word that I was looking for. It seemed inadequate. The word ‘embody’ was given to me later. So I came to understand that we are striving to embody our individual “Beingness.” i.e. Being love, pure of thought, pure of heart, incredible gentleness, tenderness, stillness, the peace that passeth all understanding. Jesus with his understanding of the Holy Spirit Energy Field has alone given us the unique opportunity to hand everything over, in Faith, to a higher Kingdom, the Kingdom of Heaven. There are a lot of superior beings, from Angels to Ascended and Cosmic Masters just waiting to be asked and to serve. With this understanding I suggested to Karen that she try it out for herself. The more you try it out, the more you see the results, and so the Faith grows. I suggested to Karen that she hand over lock, stock and barrel, the confused ‘monkey thoughts’ to Jesus to take care of and then trust that this would be the case. The following is an example of the way this needs to be done. If a child, on Friday night, said to his mum that he wanted his P.E. kit washed and pressed for Monday morning, together with extra Marmite sandwiches because he had an important match after school he would simply hand that responsibility over and wouldn’t think about it again. They would trust that it would be done. This is the kind of trust that we can develop in Jesus, or if you prefer the energy that the man represented. The other thing that I tried to share was that when you hand it over you must leave the outcome to him or angels or who ever you feel comfortable contacting. The ‘God’s’ see it all, they see the bigger picture. You have to refrain from putting an outcome or boundary on the outcome. It’s like leaving the painting unfinished and not putting a picture frame on it and so giving the ‘God’s’ a free hand. If you don’t do this the creativity will be born from your mind set of expectation and manipulation. To put it another way your mind does not match the creators so leave out suggesting the outcome and the greater the abundance will be.
You have to loose control to gain control.
Many of us have come through the positive thought growth but we are now approaching a different level of trust. I just want to emphasise that we can take a short cut. We can hand the worries over, lock, stock, and barrel if we are prepared to stop trying to think our way out of things. As a child and up to about the age of eighteen I was naturally really good at this. I could quite easily ask God as I would my father for help then sit back and “BE”. Then I got a boyfriend and an education and began to “think”. For one reason or another I shut down my communication and as very often happens, I didn’t realise what I had until it was gone. It took me a long time to find my way back and rediscover that sense of spirit again.
As a little girl I often heard Bible stories and that Jesus was the Good Shepherd and takes care of the sheep. I never really understood that, never quite saw myself as a sheep. But I have discovered that the sheep Jesus was talking about were our thoughts and we of course are responsible for our own morals and values, we ourselves are each a shepherd in that sense. I believe that the prophet Jesus tried and is still trying to teach us that through is consciousness there was and still is at hand an added bonus to help us. I believe that his mind was pure of thought and so his soul matched the divine source, his higher self and true spirit, which is Holy. He was a Holy Spirit. If we take this a step further and believe that we are all “One”, his divine energy isn’t just an individual thing but a collective one and so he isn’t just ‘a’ holy spirit but ‘THE’ HOLY SPIRIT.
For me I see a connection that can take us onward and upward straight to source.
He is pure thought and therefore the Ultimate Shepherd. It’s as if we can’t lose.
Karen phoned me back in the evening and told me that she had tried to put everything into practise and had been “Being” all day. I was about to say that the chances of success in just one day was probably pushing it but her words alerted me to her success. She said that she was feeling rather nervous because she felt kind of floaty and at times rather sensual and that she was basically insecure because she was experiencing, thinking nothing! And was even struggling to analyse that? I’m prompted to write this today because this morning I woke up the same way. When you have been used to mind chatter constantly and thinking and analysing all of the time, it is a strange experience to find yourself still. Remember the Gorilla and “BE”. The sensuality feeling is related to you experiencing love which is pure of heart, the love of “BEING”. You quite literally like yourself so much that it is like falling in love, but it is with yourself.
Another little story to try to explain this further. Many of my clients have become my teachers, my friends, my apprentices. One such person and I’ll call her Jean, said to me one day,
“Maria, you are going to despair of me?”
“Why is that?”
“I think I am falling in love with Jim again”. This was a man who verbally, physically emotionally and spiritually had brought her to her knees.
I did answer and probably despairingly. (Being human isn’t easy.)
“You are not falling in love with him; you are falling in love with yourself! Don’t go and give it away, especially to someone undeserving. It isn’t about giving it away; it’s about holding it for you, BEING IN LOVE WITH YOURSELF. Enjoy that moment. When you are in a strong place and your cup runneth over then you will find that others will naturally be caught up in your love. That feeling that is rising within you is love but it is about you and ‘being ‘love. It isn’t to do with being in love with another person and following old thought patterns and behaviour and then usually ‘thinking’ that fulfilment will come through sex. Before we know it we are back to where we started when we let our minds rule the roost.”
Understanding what love is isn’t easy. It would take Jean many years to stop falling into the same traps as indeed it took me. Love certainly isn’t what we “thought” it was!
I AM writing this to ask you to aid the next level of our evolution and I want to try to express another understanding of our Beingness and a means of strengthening that. When you are meditating, or praying, being or acting in your own place, try now to let go of the desire to direct your energy always away from you e.g. a specific healing cause. What I mean is that the greatest gift and act of generosity now is to stay in your own power, activate and energise it, holding it, stabilising it and not limiting it by putting a boundary or expectation on it. Simply Be. No thought. The more people that can achieve this then the outcome will be phenomenal in our understanding of Ascension. When you are in your own power and not getting in the way with your thoughts then the angelic host can link your consciousness up with others and direct that energy to where they want it to go, such as into the collective consciousness of a country. Wow, isn’t that something? The power of prayer really works but it works even better in the form that I am trying to describe.
Here is another example to emphasise this point. A few years ago I took part in a workshop when the animal understanding of duality was brought in, via the Lion Energy, actually here into England to ultimately aid the opening of the heart chakra of the world, again here in England. That energy is upon us and available. I myself had been directing groups and had added to this with “Hope” and “Purpose” to name but two. In workshop situations steps were taken to contain fear. I didn’t and still don’t envisage anything or set out to achieve anything. I am available as an unconditional channel as set out above. At that moment in time a beacon of light was placed to neutralise that negative energy. That beacon of light will need fuelling. When you simply activate your energy field and hold it, no ulterior motive, then your consciousness can be used is ways beyond your imagination. Around that time, approximately 2004 I was invited and of course guided to London and the group I was with in the morning did valuable work on the heart consciousness. In the afternoon a smaller group of us (working as I have been trying to explain above) found, as we held that Love of ourselves, each in our own power, where cracking open the Earth’s Heart Chakra.
You’re “BEING” in love will accelerate this process. Can you see how your place of Being is very much needed now? So I ask you to trust in this next level of letting go. “BE” at whatever place you are, tame the mind and shepherd the thoughts. Hand over the worries for greater beings to carry and sort for us with the Divine Mind’s will. This way you will be supporting more than your self, you will be assisting every platform level of elevation into the Light. Bless you all.
I had one further insight before I woke that morning of the shamanic experience as the Gorilla. (At that time I didn’t know I was a Shaman. It took the London group to tell me!) I felt that this message was sneaked in because they knew I would groan. It was, would you believe, about coffee!!! At that time I only had one or two cups first thing in the morning and I did love it. But I was told that it would affect my place of “Being.” Pooh!”
Maria Brooks Holy Shaman - Mary Magdalene: School Of Intensified Light 